the iip

iip stands for industrial internship programme.

btw, i think i sound bitchy in my blog posts. as in posts that i am updating today. i dont know. i am not having a very good mood but i just thought of uploading some of the photos.

i understand privacy. i know some of the things are not supposed to disclose in fb. so. make some room for my mou liu photos that u might or might not want to see i dont care.

=(

the shoes that make me emo almost everyday


this is in one of my job scope






i like the colours


my table


my table 2

apparently the whole room is mine. i am free to use anywhere of the room so i use everywhere of the room.

working at MT is actually fun. short working hours according the my friends but i have to work at home. and working on weekends is not fun at all! i dont get to sit in an air cond room for the whole day. most of the time i need to travel to different places to meet different people like students, educators, clients etc.

sometimes my schedule is too flexible that i can work for 11.5 hours on monday, off day one tuesday. 9.5 hours everday from tmr till sunday! yes. i dont have my holiday for wesak. ARGH!!

i just wanna do whatever i wanna do on my off day! and other than that, i think i kinda enjoy my work there. they are treating me very good (thus far)

let's hope that i get to learn more from here and get to meet more awesome people. 2 weeks over. 10 more weeks to go (:

yan
*better after talking*

comfort zone

life's short.
life can be so simple and it can be so amazing!

am now mugging alone at old can a
started blogging cuz i wanted to record everything i am feeling/seeing now.
i started to feel the importance of my canon ixus 80 IS!

the air in old can a is so clean!
so clean that i want to breathe more frequent than i usually do.

am living in my comfort zone.
strangers around me are living in theirs too =D

music rocks! oxygen rocks!

yan
*learn to say "i love you"*

coincidence?

Scene 1:
venue: CSKL 12, S4
time: ~2.10pm

Note: Itou = my japanese teacher 伊藤先生

Itou: Contact lens をかけますか。　 (Do you wear contact lens?)
Me: いいえ、かけません。　(No, I don't.)
Itou: ええ。。。　(EH????? [with the japanese look and slang.])
Class: ええ。。。　(EH????????? [immitating the japanese look and slang.])
Itou: 眼がいいですか。　(Is you eye sight good?)
Me: あの。。。はい。　(Err... Yes?? [feeling awkward.])
Itou: えええ。。。　(EH????? [with the japanese look and slang.])
Me: はいはい。　(Yes, yes. [shy])
Itou: 両親は眼がいいですか。　(Do your parents have perfect eyesight?)
Me: ん。。はい。　(Emm.. Yes.)
Itou: ええええ。。。　(EH????? [with the japanese look and slang.])
Class: えええええ。。。　(EH????????? [immitating the japanese look and slang.])

Then the whole class trying to look at my eyes and see whether I tell a lie.

Right after my japanese class, i rushed for my econs tutorial lesson. and since i was of 5 mins late, i sat myself on one of the seats at the last row. even though there are 2 tall students in front of me, i could see the words projected on the white board clearly. so I didn't bother to change place. this happens when i start copying the answers from the board.

Scene 2:
Venue: TR 100
Time: ~2.35pm

the lecturer walks towards me, bending down and ask:

Teacher: Can you see from here?
Me: Err.. Yes?
The girl beside me: Yes, yes.
Teacher: (looking at the girl beside me) Ya, i know you can see but i don't think you (me) can see from here.

i look at the girl beside me and wonder, is it because she is wearing a specs? or he wants to say that i am too short? then the lecturer bend down and try to look at the board from where i sit.

Teacher: (acting like a hip hop singer with that kind of hand) OH, I cannot see from here.
Me: ..........

Ok, i don't really know is he praising my good eyesight too? or is he trying to say anything bad?

anyway, the story of the day is, i started to feel proud with my eyesight. (: sometimes i do feel weak or tiredness on my eyes but yet, i think i am lucky compared to people of my age. I mean ONLY in this eyesight matter. (: thank god, thanks mum and dad. HAHA!

the 2 scenarios above reminded me of a friend who was trying to take out my lens by not believing me saying that i dont wear a specs/lens. LOL!

yan
*good eyesight or serious eye bags? you choose?*

where is the discipline teacher?

i am getting more and more indiscipline these days.

starting from unplanned spending on skin food,
then extra spending on snacks like chocolates and juices (which i have quit for QUITE a while),
then to the un-TAHAN-ness of staying in uni for more than... 4 days? and need to get out to breathe,
then to extended sleeping hours to 8 hours per day,
and to pushing my study schedule behind and far far behind every schedule,
then to reducing gym session from 2 times to 1 time per week.

what am i doing?
it's been a while since i last step onto a treadmill ( i think last record was last friday).
it's been a while since i blindly walk to can 9 to makan.
it's been a while since i behave NORMALLY in room to online > chatting > study > music.

haha!
anyway i don't see a point of me writing this but what i want to convey here is,
i am out of track!
bring me back to my track and be DISCIPLINED!

on a happier note:
i earned some notes after exchanging my aussie dollars back to SGD! WHEE!!! (:

yan
*am lost*

when you charge your electronic devices,

do you feel the pain when u have to turn off the switch before the battery is fully charged,

due to some reasons?

i do.

cuz it will shorten the "shelf life" of my battery.

and now,

i need to stop charging myself before i got myself fully charged.

this is not the first time i feel this emo-ness.

i think i have to admit that i have this sickness named:

pre-going-back-singapore-syndrome.

and NTU students,

do you hate NTU when they spam your webmail with rubbish emails from ISC, SPMS, Exxonmobile, Hall 12 Hall Office etc,

while you are on holidays/ when you feel like avoiding academic/ uni stuffs?

or give you deadlines or short duration on the day that you are STILL on holiday?

i do.

see you, singapore,

in less than 20 hours time.

yan

*give me an internship position please*

it just caught my eyes

Hobart, Tasmania

when can i see this again?

tiredness attacked?
turn around.
trust me.
perhaps you don't even need an ice cream to cheer yourself up?

yan
*thursday come fast. recharging needed*

Versusessss

so what i am thinking now is:

• Korean Language Level I vs. Japanese Language Level IV

• Mind Over Stress vs. Are You Okay, Mental Health in Singapore

• 3-day-week vs. 4-day-week

• skip lecture later vs. attend lecture later

HAHAHA~! i can't decide on the modules that i want to take. I NEED ADVICE!! anyway it is too complicated to list down the pro's and con's here. so i am saying that i have to make my own decision right? think so!

first week of new semester is.... BORING!!

i am unmotivated. i am changing my policy. i am..... i am not who i am??

yan
*count me in*

“我习惯了”
这句话你说了几遍？

我们总是把“我习惯了”当成一个借口
来阻止自己改变
来逃避面对

我常说自己是个不会处理感情的人
找不到改变自己的理由
习惯了习惯
任由习惯

其实
多少次我麻醉自己
多少滴眼泪
你们
不会懂

first day in penang

it's holiday now!
but this holiday seem so different.
things changed.
ya part of my life changed.

note to self:
do not overdependent. it is of no use.

i have a wonderful group of friends named the baoz. they said those that stay furthest from penang got better privilege. haha yup. they woke themselves up at 0600hr and rushed to pick me up at the terminals. and i have to dedicate this phrase to miss CH'NG CHOO WAEY!! HOW CAN U PPK US JUST BECAUSE U WANT TO SLEEP!!!

3 weeks away from them feels like 3 years. HAHA~! and miss ho, im gonna miss u. hope to see u for xmas okay?! take care over there. i know u came bk BECAUSE OF ME. the breakfast becomes so special with your presence (:

first day home was awesome, as i got to sleep through the sunday afternoon. went shopping with ma, spent some money, got my present from her, emo a while, quiet for a while, tired for a while, and off i leave for mag's new house at farlim!! =)

it was a simple gathering. not a formal housewarming right? i think it's just a simple steamboat treat from her family and we were just there to crash the partieee =P did i define it good enough?

so here are the pictures i got from my camera. most of them are blur because they are all taken by LIM HOOI HOON- the shaky hand.

me ss-ing with my plate while mei and judy got speechless-ed


one of the tables. the tomyam one. haha! it wouldn't be that syiok if the two uncles weren't there.


judy with her greatest smile on earth (:


me got spiced up by the sambal and su (okay, she is su-mei if u want to know) trying to learn how to chopstick with chopstick =P


random blur shot


maybe u cant see their faces but this is boon with a it's-time-to-change white t, waey with her liverpool jersey and edison who is obviously the only guy in the picture.


guess who was in that auntie pink?


u can recognize her even it is so blur right?
the auntie = chew mei yee! congratulations ya!! i like your new house!!

most of the pictures are with boon and waey. i can't wait to see the funny ones!!

it was an amazing night, ain't it? i especially like the last part of the gathering where everyone finally sits down and talk. i din talk much cuz i got no story to share. sad right? haha!

til then

yan
*tell me that u are still u*

an eye-swelling day

imma MIA for a while. i hope that i can do it. but other than that i think i will still be blogging.

*LOL*

wish me luck for my oral test later!

and on another note,
i feel.... so weird.
so weird to be not pampered.
it is aching to be left out.

on a happier note, you should read what my roomie blogged about her bday. she thanks me like really a thousand times. and i must say that YOU ARE WELCOME! cuz u made my day too! ya only "day". i ended my day with a da-bao-ed old town nasi lemak that night. pity me =(

maybe "somebody" is right, i am left with no friends. only my roomie. haha! whatever you want to say, go ahead! and i am telling you now that I DONT CARE!

will update soon i guess. i got too much to blog about.

yan
*i chose it, i live with it*

last lesson for japanese language level 3

finally, here comes to the end of my japanese level 3.

imma miss the classes.

this is really the most entertaining class i ever had.

how i wish i could have classmates and teacher like that again next time.

sigh....

藤田先生 (fujita sensei),

you are funny, you are cute and you are amazing!

love your moves and explanation in our classes!

haha!

damn emo.......

picture taken after our listening test. damn cute right, my class =)

体に気おつけてください！

yan

*i need more smiling faces*

失落沙洲 - 徐佳塋

it rhymes C:

失落沙洲 - 徐佳瑩 (词、曲、唱 ：徐佳塋 ）

又来到这个港口 没有原因的拘留

you lao dao zhe ge gang kou mei you yuan yin de ju liu

我的心乘着斑驳的轻舟

wo de xin cheng zhe ban bo de qing zhou

寻找失落的沙洲

xun zhao shi luo de sha zhou

随 时间的海浪漂流

sui shi jian de hai lang piao liu

我用力张开双手

wo yong li zhang kai shuang shou

拥抱那么多起起落落

yong bao na me duo qi qi luo luo

想念的还是你望着我的眼波

xiang nian de hai shi ni wang zhe wo de yan bo

*我不是一定要你回来

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当又一個人看海

zhi shi dang you yi ge ren kan hai

回头才发现你不在

hui tou cai fa xian ni bu zai

留下我迂回的徘徊

liu xia wo yu hui de pai huai

我不是一定要你回來

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当又把回忆翻开

zhi shi dang you ba hui yi fan kai

除了你之外的空白

chu le ni zhi wai de kong bai

还有谁能来教我爱

hai you shui neng lai jiao wo ai

又回到这个尽头 我也想再往前走

you hui dao zhe ge jin tou wo ye xiang zai wang qian zou

只是愈看见海阔天空

zhi dhi yue kan jian hai kuo tian kong

愈遗憾没有你分享我的感动

yue yi han mei you ni fen xiang wo de gan dong

Repeat *

我不是一定要你回來

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当又一个人看海

zhi shi dang you yi ge ren kan hai

疲惫的身影不是我

pi bei de shen ying bu shi wo

不是你想看见的我

bu shi ni xiang kan jian de wo

我不是一定要你回來

wo bu shi yi ding yao ni hui lai

只是当独自走入人海

zhi shi dang du zi zou ru ren hai

除了你之外的依赖

chu le ni zhi wai de yi lai

还有谁能叫我勇敢

hai you shui neng jiao wo yong gan

除了你之外的空白

chu le ni zhi wai de kong bai

还有谁能来教我爱

hai you shui neng lai jiao wo ai

adapted from: pinyin-lyrics.blogspot.com

Note: this song reminds me of the kebanggaan at martini. reminds me of phang phaik voon too! haha! i so want to sing it again in the ktv =)

yan

*second chance?*

我想，

身为游子的我们，

只要一有机会，

就应该回家。

嫣

it's just a conversation to myself so you can ignore the following:

i am feared.

going back to the stressful island is so scary!

i dont want to go back!

i start to realize that sometimes i was really acting in singapore.

com'on who doesnt?

we've got no choice but to hide our true emotions sometimes.

and i think i have got used to it,

and when i come back to this island called home,

i realize that i can no longer communicate well,

outcome from too many pretendings, ha!

i got no example to elaborate,

but that's just how i feel.

but face it, yan!

that's what you have chosen,

that's CAs waving to you,

homework, assignments to submit,

so many dates to meet!

meetings.. stress... midterms.. human-to-human-communications... dramatic life... omg!

i see no air in singapore!

yan

*i am not counting down, i am not!*

discrimination?

what is discrimination? and how about discriminating a certain nationality?

i understand that this problem memang exist but i never heard or deal with any sensitive examples of discriminating a malaysian. interesting!

"i am a malaysian."

how many of you can proudly say this to a stranger?

i met amy after the students' union investiture. amy's my old old friend from my orientation group-tarquinious back in my first year. we talked about some experience we had since we got admitted into ntu. we share some thoughts and of course we update each other about life. it was really nice catching up with her. should really plan some dinner dates with her or the group.

life in year one is always an emo one for everybody i guess. and after talking to amy, i feel that i am now so old! OMG! im a year three student and i have gone through so much! and the way she speaks really inspire me alot!! haha.. i don't know why but ya~ i think that i should really really brush up my ang mor! hahahaha!

so in conclusion. this is nothing but just a blog. it's just a place for me to practice my writing. hahahahahah! and u can simply ignore this blog. =P hahahahahahahahahhaha!

yan

*oh..i was a small little girl*